sweet dreams
It would be easy to be here and chronicle my recent and swift descent into debt with depth and self loathing but I must say I did have it coming. I knew the money situation wasn't sustainable. I was just barely cutting it for a good long while. I knew a speedbump would send me flyin and that's just what happened this month.
My car is acting 17 years old and demanding more so I'm feeding it more. Other fixed bills don't stop and so here I am. I owe more than I have with just enough cash left over to spend up to $8 a day until the next pay period. All but $160 of that check is already spent. The only money I really do have is untouchable because I'm holding onto it for others....it will be very nice to rid myself of it so I'm not so tempted to spend it.
You would think I would feel panic about my circumstance but I'm somewhere else. I've felt despair about all of this but right now I'm sort of numb-eager-silly-strategic. My mode has shifted somewhat and I'm thinking about all the ways I can possibly dig myself out and as I contemplate the options I feel more excitement than gloom. I'm thinking everything is gonna work out. I'll find a better way to do things.
Examining the changes that will have to be made is the easy part. Making change will be difficult. But that's not all...
I also wanted to say that I'm thankful this year for all the good people in my life. I'm thankful for my health, a warm place to live, and that so many of my needs have always been well taken care of. I realize this is a time of change and I'm gonna really try and embrace the magic of the moment. I think this time will serve as a meditation for better well-being in the long run. Happy Thanksgiving in the year 2007.
My car is acting 17 years old and demanding more so I'm feeding it more. Other fixed bills don't stop and so here I am. I owe more than I have with just enough cash left over to spend up to $8 a day until the next pay period. All but $160 of that check is already spent. The only money I really do have is untouchable because I'm holding onto it for others....it will be very nice to rid myself of it so I'm not so tempted to spend it.
You would think I would feel panic about my circumstance but I'm somewhere else. I've felt despair about all of this but right now I'm sort of numb-eager-silly-strategic. My mode has shifted somewhat and I'm thinking about all the ways I can possibly dig myself out and as I contemplate the options I feel more excitement than gloom. I'm thinking everything is gonna work out. I'll find a better way to do things.
Examining the changes that will have to be made is the easy part. Making change will be difficult. But that's not all...
I also wanted to say that I'm thankful this year for all the good people in my life. I'm thankful for my health, a warm place to live, and that so many of my needs have always been well taken care of. I realize this is a time of change and I'm gonna really try and embrace the magic of the moment. I think this time will serve as a meditation for better well-being in the long run. Happy Thanksgiving in the year 2007.
posted by el Craplastico | 9:19:00 PM
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